July 26, 2015

All you've been telling me about is your new girl that you're talking to. It's hard to hear you describe the things you do to her because we used to do those things. I shouldn't be thinking this but I can't stop wondering if I will ever get that again. I sit here and wonder if you're really that into her. I sit here and wonder if the only reason you're telling me all of this is because you want to make me jealous. Well it's kinda sorta working. I can't tell you any of this because then you will tell me to break up with my boyfriend. But I don't want to break up with my boyfriend. You're going to say "see you still want me" and "I'm better" and "you could've had me but you chose him." I don't know how much longer I can hide this from everyone. I need to focus on moving on but it's hard when you're doing everything to try and get me back.